How often have you sat and prayed searching for answers. You knock on doors and wait for them to open but only to find yet another door closes to what you thought would be the perfect path for you. I have. For five years, I have prayed for the right door to open. Over that time, I have knocked on doors that I thought were obvious choices only to find they remained firmly closed.
So back to prayer I go and asking God what is it that you have for me? When the doors close often enough, discouragement, disappointment and disillusion kicks in. You start to think that it will never happen. You will never get that break to be able to move forward. You feel as thought you are stuck in this rut forever.
You see, I was looking for an opportunity that matched the old way. I forgot to take into consideration that it was a NEW direction that I needed to focus on. Doing what I had done in the past was not an option. My future does not lie in my past. I had to let go of the past to be able to move forward.
Over the past few months, the message has been clear - "Get back in the game". It was time to stop remembering past hurts and to let go. To embrace a new direction, a new future with passion and enthusiasm. After another of our heart to heart chats, I told God that I was ready. I want to get back in the game. I want my passion back.
So I knocked on another couple of doors. Again, one closed and I asked, "What is it that you want for me God? I don't understand why these doors close." Instead of letting disappointment and discouragement rule in my head, I chose to believe that God had something better for me. That what is coming will be abundantly better than I could ever imagine. I told God, that I trusted His judgement over mine.
One phone call and it all changed. Driving home on a rainy Friday afternoon and a door opened. An unexpected door at that.
In Matthew 7v7, we are told, "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you fill find; knock and the door will be opened to you."
However, what I have learnt is that God does not always answer the way you expect. What seems obvious for us, it not always His plan. For me, the long shot came off. An option I had written off in my mind, for I thought another was a better way, has been presented. With God, you have to expect the unexpected. When you pray that His will be done, you have to be prepared, for God delivers on His promises in His perfect time and in His perfect way.
I know this is God at work, for if given the option, this girl would have chosen that 'safer' option. It would have been so much easier to settle for the 'do what you have always done' mindset as I cannot see the whole picture as God does. God wants us to grow and will give us opportunities in which to do so. We have to trust, step out in faith into the new directions that He places before us. You have to step away from the safety of the wall to see the view.
With nervous anticipation, I move into a new season.
If you are searching for answers, be faithful. Continue to ask God to show you the way through. Pray not only for doors to be opened but for the wrong doors to be closed so you don't stray off the path. Seek His will. Read His word. Pursue His purpose for your life.