It was just a thought. A thought that came from nowhere and not ever what I expected to think about. It was a thought that captured my heart so much it missed a beat and gave me goosebumps. It was more than a thought. It was a realisation of what God can do. Where He can lead me. What the journey has been all about.
Over the past five years, I have wondered where this was all going. I would try to control the direction, while praying for God's lead and then end up with doors closing that I thought should open. Acceptance has been a journey in itself, where I finally give in, trust and believe that whatever the plan is that God has for me, it will be amazing.
This morning, as I made a cup of coffee, a window in my mind opened. A vision, so big that I could never have dreamed it myself. A powerful direction that even as I write this, the goosebumps return. It makes sense now. Why I have been led down this path. Why I feel compelled to hang on even when I want to give up.
I realise now that God can not reveal the whole plan at once, regardless of how much I have begged, as I would not be able to receive it all. It would send me into a place of overwhelm where I would feel so inadequate, unable and unworthy that I would just stop there and then. Instead, He gives you pieces, calls you into new directions and little by little reveals His plan in bite-sized pieces of goodness and grace. How great is our God!
Wow....what lies ahead is far more than I could have ever dreamt of five years ago or even twenty-five years ago. As I look back on my journey, I can see the steps and have a greater understanding as to the 'why'. I now sit eagerly waiting for the 'how' to come forth and I know that God will put before me the right people at the right time, in the right place to make His plan come to pass.
Goosebumps with God....just have to love it!
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