Yesterday was nothing less than amazing. Morning worship at church was a beautiful experience. As I stood there praising God for well, everything, I could not help but feel the song in my heart rising up. There was this overwhelming feeling that went through my whole body. There was a joy and at the same time a cry from deep inside calling to my God.
As I cried out inside, the tears rolled down my cheeks and I felt the presence of God filling me from head to toe. I just wanted to sing. Every part of me wanted to embrace what he has for me. Now I have felt the spirit before but this was different. It was overwhelming, consuming and one that I could not hold back from. I felt like I was being filled to overflowing with something far more than I could ever imagine. I wanted more. A heartfelt 'bring it' burned inside and I just wanted to stay in that moment forever.
I am feeling so blessed to have heard his call and even more so, having the courage to respond. For years, I felt lost and an emptiness that I tried to fill with everything except God. How could I have been so blind? It is so evident now that 'in my own power' is nowhere as exciting as when you hand it over to God. Letting him lead, asking him to restore me and accepting all that he has for me was the best decision I ever made.
Today, I stand in awe that even when I put him last, he puts me first. When I walk away to forge my own path, he lovingly follows waiting for me to turn around so he can guide me onto his path. He puts meaning into my life. He makes me feel so overwhelmed that I easily go to tears when I think of him. What a wonderful God I have. How can I ever live this life without him by my side?
When the spirit moves, you move. You can't resist, you have to respond. My heart is still singing.
Psalm 30 v 12: "...That my heart may sing your praises and not be silent. LORD my God, I will praise you forever.