Some days I am so focused, so sure that nothing can stand in my way. Other days, the focus fades and I feel lost and my footing unsure. Questions come and flood my mind and the answers are not easy to find. I search for guidance, direction and confirmation. Am I heading down the right path? Am I on track? Is this what God wants me to do? Oh how I wish that God would leave little messages of love on my desk each morning telling me exactly what he wants me to do. Better still, a daily email outlining tasks complete with links for further support and his direct contact details.
Life isn't quite so simple. Our path is something we have to work out and that can involve trial and error. We deconstruct the disaster to see where we went wrong. We look for the message that we missed, the misinterpretation of information or did we not listen properly in the first place.
I don't want to get to gates of heaven and be left outside watching the others inside enjoying his glory. I don't want to stand before my God and hear him say, "Well, I was trying to tell you but you didn't listen." Instead I want to hear those beautiful words, "Well done, my good and faithful servant, enter now into my kingdom."
So, on those days when the focus is poor and all sense of direction has gone out the window I will return to what I know. It is in those moments that I will turn to the one who placed a desire in my heart and said 'go'. I will continue to plan, I will continue to take steps forward (no matter how small) and I will continue to believe that he will make my footing sure as I trust that he knows the direction and all I need to do is follow.
A man's mind plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps and makes them sure. Proverbs 16: 9